How did I get here?

If I unblock the natural flow of my thoughts what would the results be? Just the thought of not having control over my mind scares me. It would remove the censorship that I have placed on my thoughts.

Nothing comes out unless it’s fine-tuned, made presentable and acceptable to me. So I am going to try and override my thinking pattern just to see the results.

When I first started my blog none of this was an issue. I was more open and acceptable of my thoughts good or bad. Lately I find it hard to write mainly because of that.

I think that I have become too aware of the effects my freedom of thought could have. Isn’t writing about sharing your most inward experiences? Right now I am fighting the urge to trash or draft this post.

There’s a part of me that doesn’t like sharing too much information about myself. I am already worried about what people might think when and if they do read my blog. The more I continue to write the more the words come naturally. If I start analyzing what I want to write then I get stuck in my thoughts and nothing comes out.

I am not into forcing myself to write, for me this is already a good start. Tomorrow I’ll be back trying to get back into expressing my thoughts and experiences without the censorship.