Three strikes and you’re out. Three chances to get it right and then what happens?

How will I know unless I try, how can I decide if something or someone is right for me?

I have always had good intuition. My problem has always been me doubting even when I knew that I was right. I have noticed a pattern in my behaviour, in my choices, in what I believe that I deserve, in me losing myself in an aim to win someone over. I love proving my worth, I have this need to convince someone about what I know about me. I oftentimes put out so much effort in proving my worth to the point of exhaustion. I use up all my mental and physical energy. When I don’t see the results in this unhealthy mechanism I eventually become my worst enemy.

Today I am learning to go against that need that I have to always doubt myself, to not trust my intuition, to not want what’s best for me. Today I am learning to resist all those hardwired bad habits that I have picked throughout the years. I am learning to go against those behavioural patterns that have caused me to ignore my intuition and not make the best choices for my mental and physical health. Even now as I write I am fighting the urge to do what I have always done which is doubt myself. I am an expert at giving things, people and situations so many chances to prove me wrong. This time I give myself the chance to prove me right. No more self doubt. I trust my intuition.